Just trying to hold onto faith is hard right now.
a lot more tired this week, even though ive been sleeping a lot. headaches and nausea feelings are back also. i realize a lot of my life was a waste, and that my life sucked, even when i didnt have cancer. my biggest regret? not ever taking chances. ive never ice skated, or went horseback riding. ive never went go karting, or tried something new just because. if i could start my life over, it would be way different. you would never love me if i was fat and ugly. you would never love me now. you only love me now because i was once beautiful. im not skinny and curvy anymore, and if you saw me now, you would stop loving me. hopefully i get off the steroids soon so these cheeks go away. i dont mind being overweight for a little while, these cheeks need to go though. my feet and legs are red and irritated, i have more stretchmarks, whoopeee. i dont feel good.. TL.
